To feel the pain physically and mentally is probably one of the worst things ever…

Probably thinking too much again but your actions really doesn’t make any sense to me. Afraid that my tears will drop again though im trying to hold it back. Be strong be strong. I hope I can pull through this and that things will get better… I miss when things were simpler. So this is actually how I felt two years ago and now the feeling is coming back…

Unloved, unwanted.

Dont know what’s worse- to continuously having you blaming me or for you to keep quiet and ignore me.

Hate all these I really hate it. Maybe I’m too emotional but it feels like a huge burden on me yet you dont understand.

You don’t understand how it feels like for me to try to reason with you yet just get ignored. You don’t understand how I try to fit to what you want and when I really can’t ypu don’t even compromise. You don’t understand how I feel so bad.

Haven’t cried for a long time and it’s always the same few reasons that can trigger me to cry. I hate to feel so weak.

Feeling a little too tired from school for the past few days and I can’t wait for the week to end although there’ll be more things coming up.

Wish I can spend a little more time with you because only then I can truly feel happier and not so tired of everything. Miss being in your arms dear.

Hoping for some miracle to happen so I won’t feel so distracted anymore sighs.

Slamming the door and throwing hurtful words is the last thing I would want to do but shooting me down and not even giving some thought about the things I was saying is the first and only thing you do.

Really dislike dealing with your character and everything. I dont like being rude either and you can be angry at me for all you want as long as you can accept my decision. Harsh but I want the best not for myself but for others. 

I know you’re worried and all that about my safety and I will definitely be responsible for whatever I do and not cause a mess which would make all these decisions useless. When can you ever start trusting me? Why are my views so insignificant to you all the time?

Urgh I need to calm down.

Not feeling well yet you still do so many sweet things for me… Really really touched :)
How you help me put my hair aside because the wind kept blowing it, helped this pig wipe away her sweat, putting your arms around me at times, letting me lie on your shoulder so I can rest, lending me your phone as a mirror so i can tie my hair, blowing at my eye so that it won’t feel so itchy anymore… And of course holding your hands :)
The first time ever…. That I wake up from a nightmare and I really have someone by my side comforting me and making me feel better. Thank you for putting your arms around me and giving me a kiss on my cheek. :)))
I wouldn’t mind having more nightmares if i have you with me hahahaha.
All these small actions make me feel so great to be by your side, really hoping one day i can become ‘your girl’. Like really officially yours. Blessed to have someone so amazing by my side, thank you for everything my dear :’)